Realized that i dont like being the older fat kid @ the dojo… Not that im grossly obese… Fluffy i believe is the new PC term. I could stand to lose about 15lbs… But today was my wake up call when all of my fellow purple belts are pretty much sporting six packs and guns… And then there is me..
That will change.. Ive got nothing to lose except the weight and everything to gain.. That journey starts today. I figure i might as well channel my hurt and frustrations w the whole beth episode into fuel that i can use to change myself into something that everyone will want, but the wont get to have.. Sounds bitter… But whatever.. Its for me.. And for now, its all about me..